Festive season = good news =love in the air???

As the year is approaching to an end, the festive mood has begin to affect the people around me.

In this happy time of the year, love has also started to bloom and affect all my friends around me.

Love is in the air!!!

Recently, friends around me have either become attached or they have found the person that they think is special to them. I am not an exception however I am not that optimistic about the possibilities between me and my special guy.

The bad point of having friends that are attached: it is harder to ask either of them out since they have totally become like those inseparable twins on the news ( More like mission impossible). They can't live without each other for a single second. But nonetheless, I am happy for them but that would mean I would be left alone for more of the time, which is exactly what I don't need at this point in time. ( I am on a holiday now doing like nothing, seriously nothing. Coz those who know me should know that I wanted to do something but that someone leave me no chance to do anything.)

Firstly, he had yet to know how i feel about him (all my friends are telling me that if I don't tell, he won't know)

Secondly, he is so passive and shy. (I want to know him more but due to his shy nature, it is like really really hard, tough and difficult)

Thirdly, I am always the one asking him out. (I can't help but wonder if he like me anot, coz if he did then i suppose he would at least ask me out for once?)

Fourth,, I can't communicate with him in any form of virtual way!!! ( Yes, you must be wondering, but no: He does not used MSN!!! He goes on facebook but he turns the chat option off!!! I can only call him!!! And ya he must be wondering why do i always call to ask him about cooking!!! That is the only thing that i can think off that would not be awkward to talk about since I am super duper nervous when I call him on phone. HAIZ!!!)

Last but not the least since the list is always increasing everytime i tried to ask him out, He is always BUSY and occupied with things!!! (I tried my best to create chances but since due to his always full schedule, there is just no way and nothing I can do. What more do you expect me to do???!!!)So he would reply no and he can't make it because he is busy. But hey there, I know you are BUSY but could you at least just squeeze out sometime for me??? So all in all, all this point to the fact that he is not INTERESTED in me!!! Why did I even need to take so long to figure out this??? Such a sad fact.

But hope is not lose, some good news has also come into picture, I have just heard from my other friends in Singapore that 2 pair of my married friends are expecting their first child. That is like wow, at least there are still some good news appearing in my life.

Well, hopefully that is not the last piece of good news in this year, result is coming out on 2nd of Dec, I am expecting a first class honours for my result based on the average marks that were released earlier on however I will also be happy if I got a second upper class.

After all, I am not such a ambition person and I know that i do deserve a second upper when I compare my effort with my other friends. But then again, it is hard to compare when all of us have a different research topic :p.

Regardless, I still have this tiny little hope in me, thinking that when i confess to him, he can respond back in a positively way if not, I still wish that we can still be friend after that. ( And please stop asking me to confess to him fast coz it take alot of courage to do that, please let me be more sure of things before I do something stupid to jeopardize the relationship between me and him)